Lingering Thoughts

One of the things I dislike but can’t seem to avoid encountering is the fact that a few hours or even days after I wrote and saved a lengthy blog post, I’m being bombarded by new ideas and also old ones that I had forgotten to include. Despite everything that I had to say about a topic, there are still more ideas that seem to just sprung out of nowhere in my brain. It irks me because sometimes I just can’t ignore an idea in my head. What’s worse is that it seems to “haunt” me at night, when I’m in bed and about to doze off to sleep land. It’s like I have to write them down. There’s a strong urge but I can’t seem to know why I have to. It stays in my head and bugs me, like I have to emancipate it or something. It’s weird having to explain this in words. It makes me sound so pathetic, ain’t it? I need to get a life. Heh.

I wish I could have brevity in my writing. I wish I can write about something while remembering in that moment everything I need to say, then move on once it has been saved and posted in my blog. Unfortunately, I’m the kind who can blabber as much as she can about something and still have residual thoughts the day after. Being me can be exhausting sometimes, mentally exhausting.

So to cure this nagging thing in my head, kindly allow me to list a few ideas and clarifications about the whole PMS thing I wrote days before. (No one is obligated at all to read this, especially if you don’t want to. :-p This is just for my peace of mind’s sake.)

• Despite my obvious personal beliefs about PMS, I got nothing against those with different views. I’m very open to other people and to friends of mine who think differently. As I’ve said in the comments, I even enjoy talking with friends about their PMS experiences. I appreciate the trust they have on me when they “kiss and tell.”
• Believe it or not, I’m not that prude. It’s just that the degree of my being prude doesn’t cross the X-rated line. With that being said, it doesn’t mean I don’t fiddle and delight myself around the area near the sex line. What I’m saying is, there are a lot of ways to deal with the “urge” that inevitably comes in having a boyfriend without doing the actual act. There’s canoodling, caressing, cuddling, embracing, fondling, making out, petting, smooching..you get the idea. Foreplay doesn’t always have to end in sex, you know.  Will power, a very strong one, to not do the act is what it takes to mingle with the temptation yet still not indulge in it. But it’s always best to just stay out of the temptation, especially at times when you don’t trust yourself. Will power can still falter, after all.
• I can’t help but think about the possibility that I may sound like a smart-ass or a know-it-all advocate and counselor on PMS and abstinence by writing a blog like I did. I was half expecting that I would get some violent reactions and hate messages. Thankfully, I got neither. However, if it has offended or will offend anyone in the future, I apologize. I didn’t mean for it to be like that at all. I didn’t intend for what I wrote to appear like a command for anyone. I was just sharing my views. A decision about PMS is a decision an individual makes for herself. And anyone ought to be respected for her own decisions, whatever those decisions may be.

OK. There, I said it.

Now let’s move on from this sex thing, shall we?

~ by Michelle on April 5, 2009.