Brain Farts

I’ve been having a lot of brain farts lately. It’s pretty normal when, every now and then, we find ourselves forgetting the exact word for something we feel, see or do, or even someone else’s name. It has happened to me a lot of times before, things like:
- I have forgotten the Ilonggo word for something I was saying even if Ilonggo is my native language.
- Being unable to spell properly words that I perfectly know before.
- It has taken me longer than usual to remember the name of someone I know.
- When asked a random question by someone at home or from work, I couldn’t form the right words. It was as if my brain is still scanning my memory bank like a slow computer memory, looking for the answer even if it’s just a simple question. And all that comes out of my mouth are nonsense blahbers.

Lately, these type of things have been happening to me more often. Just a while ago, I couldn’t spell rely anymore. I was typing a comment and I couldn’t spell the word. I typed relie..Knew that it’s not right..Change it to relay..Still not right. And right then and there I was already close to a panick attach thinking that a possible dyslexia is going on in me. I couldn’t spell the word rely for goodness’ sake!! I had to google the lyrics of the song “Somewhere Only We Know” by Keane because I recall that it has a line with the word rely on it.. I’m getting old and I need something to rely on. How’s that?! I’ve been a good speller and it’s just a simple, four-lettered word! C’mon!! Poor me, couldn’t spell rely.

It kinda worries me and I’m having these so-called theories. I think my neurons are maybe decomposing due to too much information I’ve been acquring from my reviews for the 3 different consecutive Med. Tech exams that I took. It’s good for the brain to acquire new information; But when you’re doing it in a cramming manner, then maybe it’s causing brain/memory damage or something. Or maybe it’s decomposing because I haven’t been putting enough essential information in it. Maybe I’ve been idle for too long because all I ever do with my free time is mostly surf the net, watch TV, stay up late and sleep. No brain-empowering exercise at all.

Another theory of mine is that I lack sleep. I’m mentally stressed enough to still be awake even after at least 2 hours of going to bed, inspite of my feeling exhausted physically. Back in my couch potato days, which is not too long ago, I would sleep at almost dawn. I woke up feeling tired. I couldn’t sleep even if I was tired and sleepy. And when I was finally feeling sleepy, I would fight my sleepyness because I would still surf the net and watch TV. I’m lacking sleep most of the time. I didn’t have any sleep before taking the board exam and my 2 other American licensing exams. My brain was tired yet I forced it to stay awake, purging it until it is ready to surrender on me.

Maybe my body is just getting back at me. I need to recharge it completely.
Should have enough sleep on a regular basis.
Need to eat more vegetables and balance my diet by also eating fish, meat, poultry and those other food groups on the upper part of the food pyramid. And oh, drink some fresh milk! I’m a varied kind of eater and I eat anything, from vegetables to red meat. But at times I stick too long to a food group.
Should take my vitamins regulary.

I want these brain farts to go away. I don’t want to lose even just a pinch of memory and appear dumb. If I keep on doing these idle things, maybe I’ll develop Alzheimer’s Disease! Or Parkinson’s!! Or worse, Schizophrenia!!! Or even worse, some other form of dimentia wherein I’ll hate myself for not being able to remember things..places..people and I’ll be forced to be put in a mental institution. That’ll be really horrible and unimaginable for me. Though at times I’m already qualified to be a psych patient due to my craziness and dorkiness. HAHA! I may be overreacting on the dimentia part but I’m kinda scared for myself. My mental self. I need to take care of my body a whole lot better.

I do sound a bit crazy on this blog already, don’t I?

~ by Michelle on November 7, 2007.